thinking...

I have been doing A LOT of thinking lately!

When I figure it all out in my head I will attempt to put it into words on here...

to be continued...

these are a few of my favorite things...

pajamas and snow boots
hugs
dancing
family & friends
laughter
laying in bed during a thunderstorm
music
pictures
sunshine
football
nightime snow...and waking up to a fresh blanket of snow
tear jerkers
change

these are just a few of my favorite things...

oh the innocence!!

Talked to a kindergartener who just lost her Dad.

She was the first one to find him...she tried to wake him...she tried to help him breath...she dumped water on him...and then they had to call the firemen.

It's kind of boring having a parent die...she informs me...

Oh the innocence of a child!

roller coaster

This week has been a real roller coaster!

The beginning of the week started with some news at work that did not sound very promising for my job security! I had a mini-melt down, thanks mom! Got over that and have started looking into going back to school to be a teacher...en route to being a principal! Without goals what are we doing...sitting idle!? Me? Never!

I watched someone dear to my heart take a big step in their life this week...all I can say is that my cup runneth over. I continually think about and check on my childhood friend, Missy's, itty bitty babies! My thoughts and prayers are with them as they continue to grow!

Today I dropped off our paper work to host an intern from Aneesa's school. I just decided to do it! I think it is the change that we need in our lives right now! Like I said...idle!? Me? Never!

So now let this week go out with a BANG! Tomorrow I am hosting a jewelry and scentsy party at my house. I am very excited to have a party here...always love hosting!! I am even more excited to have one of my best friends from high school, Courtney, come down for the weekend! To top that off one of my all time favorite ex-roomies, Alexis, is coming down on Saturday to stay! Look out KC cause these mamas are hitting the town Saturday night!

Just what the doctor ordered!!

So up and down I go!

'Dreaming With A Broken Heart'

This song takes my breath away every time I hear it! There has been one love in my life that has left me dreaming with a broken heart. I don't think I truly knew what love was until I felt the pain described in this song...

"you roll out of bed and down on your knees and for a moment you can hardly breath...wondering was she really here...
is she standing in my room...no she's not cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone."

...and for a moment you can hardly breath... that is the pain of love. Despite the pain that love can bring...I would do it all again!!

~dreaming~

Growing up I didn't have a lot. We were pretty broke most of my life and I was not showered with all the expensive clothes like every teenager demands. We never had fancy cars...or reliable cars for that matter! What I did have though was the most amazing family!

I was completely spoiled growing up! There never seemed to be a dull moment in our house...always something going on. I had two of the most loving supportive parents who demonstrated to me daily what it meant to be a great parent and what it meant to be married. I had two wonderful sisters to be complete enemies and best friends with.

Right now I long for that family. I was never the girl that grew up dreaming of being a princess and having some fairytale wedding. I still do not dream about that. What I do dream about though is a house filled with laughter and love. I long for the noise and chaos of a family.

I know that families come in all shapes and sizes. I realize that I have a family...more than most. It is my dream though that one day my home will be filled with the craziness of a larger family!

roommate

I have been considering hosting an intern from Academie Lafayette. I have been considering this since at least last June. I considered hosting a student for the school year but then talked myself out of it. I decided to just become a mentor family instead. Although I have enjoyed it...I still have this longing to host a student. Recently the school has said that they need host families for the second semester.

So there it is...the temptation to host a student all over again. I feel as though this may be the perfect opportunity because the student would only be with us for a semester plus they are familiar with KC and have friends already...less pressure to help them find their way and fit in.

Obviously, this decision would change our world completely. Right now I feel as though I need that change. Some days it is lonely here by myself and maybe a roommate is just what I need.

Opinions are very much welcome...but do know that I am trying really hard to make my own decisions these days!